I really don't know how to say this, I can't explain it either. Do you sometimes feel that feeling wherein you think you've done something terrible, but you really don't know what? Then you'd hear things that would confirm your thoughts. But it's realy hard to think of something that would help in solving the problem. I know I'm talking nonsense here. I can't even understand myself. I'm not even sure if it's me. I just think that it IS me. There are things that I'd never want to lose. But I think I'm losing it now. And I don't know how I could prevent it. It's just that I don't understand myself. I know I should set my priorities. I just never thought the situation would be taken like this. I know I've done it before, and I'm doing it again. I'm hurting feelings. I know I laugh a lot. And in laughing I forget about others who'd cry in my laughter. I'm really sorry for doing it. I never intended it to hurt anyone. Especially someone whom I truly care for. But please, I'd rather hear the pain and anger than feel it this way. I know I deserve the anger. And I'm ready to hear it all. It's not easy. But I hope everything would be well soon.

Posted by LoRiE at 3:56 PM

colours fill my life with wonders ¢¾